Відео

Holy shit Loud warning at 1:27

I was clean for two whole years and I was so proud of myself, until two days ago something happened that made me do it again. This time was worse then two years ago, I’m trying so hard to get clean again. 😞🫶

You look great in this video I love your videos it's really to bad this is the last time I've seen you love your videos hope your doing good and always hope I may see you again

I woke up thinking of you Marie. I wonder if you are a ray of sunshine now. ☀️ You always brightened peoples days. ❤

"I just don't see how it works" Yeah, that's about right. All it does is keep people who are dangerous off the street and traumatize people who aren't dangerous into never coming back.

I was diagnosed literally 3 days after I turned 18! So almost as soon as you, but my ADHD was diagnosed within 5 minutes of my assessment with an ADHD specialist in CAMHS... The whole 1hr appointment should have been the assessment but practically as soon as she saw me she'd diagnosed me 😂 she literally only asked me 2 or 3 questions before confirming it to me, my mum and my dad 🤣😅. ❤

I'm in the same boat as you

You look a lot happier now that's good

Why would this person try to commit suicide she's to pritty to die

I self harm which I am sorry to say because of loads of reasons but no one cares

انتي فتاة قويه والندبات التي في يدك تميزك عن باقي الفتيات وانتي جميلهtranslete plez

TW: 11:58 I think superficial wound just describes the layer of skin it’s gone into. It usually just means non-surgical. I hear “superficial” when it’s describing non SH related injuries as well, so it might not be there to invalidate MH issues (although that type of this is prominent in the MH healthcare).

I have 4 scars , stopped a few months ago. Praying for everyone.🫶🏼

I am 38 days clean. The longest I have ever been. It started with managing 1 or 2 days, then 1 week, after that 2 weeks and now 38 days

My theory is the Dad was going 80 mph downhill means he couldn't stop. That correlates with his unusual frequent stops. He was evaluating the brakes having trouble. The package taken by that woman was probably the family's bug out travel bag. The boys mother probably grabbed the boy holding him tight and their bodies were crushed, fused together by fire and acid. They need to excume the mothers body and do DNA tests ill bet they will find the boys remains.

There’s not a single day that goes by where I don’t think of you. Even in death, you still have people drawn to you, THAT is your legacy and a testament to the incredible human being you were. 25 years was not long enough, but damn did you make an impact in those 25 years, an impact most people will never make. The thought of the pain you must have felt in your final moments makes me feel physically sick, I’m just so sorry for your pain, you didn’t deserve any of it. I pray everyday that you’re finally at peace, Marie.

3 hours clean!! ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

Once I passed out after cutting? What does that mean

This brakes my heart💔 But if you reading this you are amazing and beautiful I love you

i miss you, i think il always come back to your channel- feels so different now though 😢

How you take care of yourself and do UA-cam videos is amazing thanks for helping people. I always wonder if a live twitch account would work for creators with mental health problems

No one cares but i’m a day clean

😢

No one will care but I’m 3 months clean!!! (If not 4:D) and I will try to stay clean❤❤❤

Wait she passed away?? When? What happened??

I had an extreme suicide tendency last month. I watched your video and decided to live. Now I just got to know u are no more. Like? Now, what should I do? Should I end my life too? Is that a sign? Am just numb.

Dude? You committed suicide?? I just got to know. I thought you were alive and happy. What is the point? I started following u on instagram and just checked comments and am still in shock.

Why do they have to ask?? It's so clear. Why can't they just feel it and stay calm😢

I’m 1 week clean!

there is not a day when I don't think about you Marie, I still can't make peace with the fact that you are gone. missing you so much.

thinking of you everyday marie, miss you so so much 🌟🌙💛

I used to think that life worked how it did in the movies. That one of these days someone would pick my sad face out of a crowd of living people and say to me ‘are you okay?’ so that I could say ‘No, I’m not’ and then they could say, ‘can I help you?’ And I’d just lean into them to get warm and they’d hold me and let me into their smiling big home with a piano and everything and I’d just be their ‘Big Mike’ except I’d be ‘anorexic’ me until they fed me and made me feel warm enough to stand on my own two feet, to smile, and look out into the world and see there really was something worth living for. But there’s not and life is just a series of events that goes on till one day it just stops. I wonder when mine will. I wonder about stopping it myself because I’m getting tired. So tired I’m growing numb to it, ya know? Like how hot water can eventually feel cold. I could go into everything that’s happened to me, but, as I’m writing this, I feel like all that shit is just stuff. Yeah, traumatizing shitty stuff, but just stuff and I’m stuffed up with it as if I’m filled to the brim and need to explode, but instead I’m calm and numb and tired and somewhere in the cocktail of that is a pain too painful to feel. I just… Don’t even know what to do anymore about all that stuff. The abuse, the poverty, the world’s expectations and my own on top of my mothers and Gods. I almost wish someone could just tell me what to do. Could give me a twelve step program out of this mind numbing beaten down place in my lungs that won’t let me breathe at night. But mostly, I wish I could live in a world where saying all of this to a strangers face, because that’s all I’ve got now, I wish I could say all this stuff to someone and that it would lead to warmth and a helping hand. Instead, I cried alone on the sidewalk today, watching people walk faster past me. I guess I can’t blame em. I’m a mess of human being right now. But a simple sad smile on the way by me might have made me feel alive, might have made me think that I would be okay somehow. I dunno. I don’t know anything anymore.

I just self harmed and I’m 25 years old. It doesn’t have a limit. I’m so sorry for anyone who has felt those feelings. I hope you bloom and grow and become happy.

14:40 "boring"?

im 14 and My parents would never understand they would be like "why, no phone, no more friend cuz its their fault" Ive struggled with it for a year and a half and i was clean for 98 days and i fuckin ruined it so its been hard

I miss you Marie… rest in peace 🥺

special girl, forever loved.

forever loving you & missing you.

I cant believe she’s gone…. 🥺

Miss you 🥺 I loved watching your videos, you were such an inspiration and helped me… I actually didn’t know that you were gone until today…

I often come back here, hoping that I’ll see a new upload and realise that it was just a bad dream. I miss you angel. Thank you for all that you did, for your time, your effort, the little texts - all of it. I hope heaven is treating you well ❤

I ain't never making it clean, i dont scar easily and concealer works wonders at hiding the marks, well until it rains or you get wet. I do mine in threes, have multiple blades so taking them away i have a hundred more. Ive even given some away on purpose when id get caught unknowingly when water would rinse off my concealer and reveal them. Giving them the blade i had eased their concerns and I'd get slapped on the wrist and get another one ive hidden at home. My life story is ive lost most of my family, and have body dysphoria, seizures, and adhd. I have them for life. I did nothing wrong yet im cursed with these things, so i show the universe my rebellious nature by doing such until the seizures get taken away. Want me to stop, take the seizures away. Nothing worse than getting 'burned alive' during a seizure and then have the next day bedbound because you cannot move from sheer exhaustion. I unfortunately choose not to stop until they stop ruining my life. For a man, seizures will ruin any value you have to any partner since you cant drive, get your license taken away till you go seizure free for 6 months. Which in my case seems just out of reach.

Does self harm have anything to do with blood pressure? Like if you're feeling too much stress, you want to let some blood out to physically lower the pressure.

I've been clean for over a year after 18 or 19 years of SH because the urges had just gone away.. lately the feeling has returned, so I'm here watching videos about it. I'm honestly confused at this point because it has been such a big part of my life and identity. I wouldn't recommend anyone to consider starting to SH.

God this is so sad to watch back 💔 poor poor girl 😢

i miss you

Speak proper English. It’s when you go to THE hospital

depression is acrime against humanity

Why is this in my recommended? Well some people do need to see this, so I'm commenting and subbing for the algorithm. I'm never sh'ed and I wish anyone who has good times soon

i miss you marie, im where you were again and idk how i can keep going but i'll try my best for you. im glad you're finally at peace but fuck it's heartwrenching that you had to go so soon and the way you did, ily